Anonymous asked: i hope yu dont find this weird but youre so handsome and id do anything for a shot at love with yu. Yu seem really sweet and caring <3333333

oh wow, well thankyou.

I wish it all could be different and we could celebrate this day, like it was originally planned. It really sucks, that I hoped and believed for this turn around to happen already, and then finding out that you see this totally different now than before, because of my foolish behavior. It kills me knowing that I’m the only one ready to restart and fix it and you just dipping your feet into the water. I feel like I’m sure, and you are not. I know, I made you feel insecure and worried and now you don’t even think we had a relationship..

I don’t think for a relationship to blossom it should take so long. If it is right, it happens instantly. The chemicals in our body, this euphoria is a two second trigger in knowing how you feel and what you want - in an instant. I personally think it was, it definitely was. You just don’t devote so much time and care and leave until the morning hours to just test the sea; you dive in for what you really want and what I think we spent together, was indeed a relationship.

Now all of a sudden, it’s all fading away with the insecurity that I mounted onto your shoulders to handle. When in reality, I’m here and wanting it all back to take it off piece by piece if you just let me like I can.

And it kills me, how much I really love you..